entry 4-Unheard?

For one, I decided waiting a little to write leaves me with to many thoughts or stories that go unheard. However who has time in this busy life to always update and write. Currently I am focusing on dieting and cleansing. However I cant seem to get the "shit" out! So I have scheduled a colonic and am nervous but intrigued. They actually flush it out of you. I tried not to watch a video of it but I couldnt resist sharing it! So, do I have any readers yet? Just one, show me a sign please! I will be sure to update you and take notes on what I release. I even heard some people see toys they swallowed when they were toddlers- now thats SICK! Ps. shout out to my poor,sad friend who can not seem to overcome her addiction (to almost everything, including the media- I love her dearly-get better soon) sending her peace love and light! Are bat hits in the middle of the day bad for a suburban housewife? If anyone has thoughts on that feel free to comment!

entry 3- Just plain PISSED!

now I am really fucking pissed cause I just spent the past 30minutes updating and writing about some good shit- about the power of creation, the law of attraction, and manifestation. But it got erased or lost somewhere in the Internet. However I was discussing this great sense of clarity I had earlier, but I waited to long to write and my flow diminished. I am intrigued by women out there who have been teaching exactly the same thing my friend and I were discussing a few years ago. We wanted to design a workshop for women (or men) to teach how to be in control of your destiny. To create and manifest that which you desire in your life. After seeing the article in the NY times the other day we were given a sign that it CAN be done, and that women like Gabrielle Bernstein, Jennifer Macaluso-Gilmore, and Sera Beak are all doing it! I had crazy thought juices flowing earlier and now its all GONE. so I will leave you with my pissed off-niss and I will sleep it off. Funny how the wellbutrin prozac combo work sometimes. You can start off low and by eve your feeling great then you sorta crash. Hope for a happy day tomorrow. Looking for my "spirit" to shine on.

entry 2 - Damn You Isagenix!

so i have been waiting all day to find the time to log in and update!!

I had to take 2 laxatives and a senna "smooth move" tea today to get all of that holiday dinner build up outta me! I was waiting all day just to finally take a "dump"... why was it so difficult. I eat veggies, I take flax, I even drink aloe vera juice AND take stool softeners.. what am I holding onto??? But it finally hit... ahh! this isagenix must be blocking me up!

and everything else is la-di-da...I had so many thoughts running thru my mind last night it took me a while to fall asleep. And today I did a cleanse day and I had a lot more energy than i expected to have...considering I didnt eat and only drank some nasty "fruity" cleanse juice I spent a shit load on. However I do feel a little slimmer...uch! I need to shake the belly fat off! ok, signing off... feel free to add your thoughts! Gona get that hula hoop out and start hooping, Did you know theres a whole hooping culture out there. PS. Conan Obrien is the funniest guy!

entry 1 - A new exploration

so i decided to give this blog thing a try...sorta like a free therapy, or a venting session. Maybe just a whole lotta nonsense...NO, a DIARY! and not the diary that my dad bought me when I was young, only to find that after 3 years of writing in it my parents pried the lock open to read it, how horrible??!! and then went to my therapist and told him! No, this will be a new diary. A more "mature" version... and now I will begin to keep my online diary...and look inside of my wacky mind. Funny though, everyone but me seem to think I am wacky- or out there...actually some people just say "your crazy..." but am I? I dont think so...just think I am pretty normal. So what if I like to make out with my 2 year old son! he's delicious!! at least i can do it now and he will never remember how crazy his mommy was...

ok, readers, if you do exist feel free to comment on any thoughts i have...

oh yea, I started this damn ISAGENIX program and i seem to be the only person who didnt drop major lbs! so tomorrow is my cleanse day and I just stuffed my fat ass for three nights on jew food for rosh hashana...i am gross. I hope i can cleanse some of that shit out!! will keep you posted...night night!